So now what?

Tonight, we are at Barnes & Nobles. Homework, Starbucks, and inevitable procrastination. During some typical boy conversation I paused to ask Steph, "So now what?" This is usually an answerable question, but right then it did not apply to the context of the conversation. At all.
Steph stopped, "What do you mean 'So now what?'"
...."I don't know" was all I could answer.

I have really been thinking about what to write this blog about, but after that odd question exchange I am left with some more questions.
After losing someone important, what do you do?
Better yet, what comes next after accepting that loss?

I would argue that after some time, it isn't a loss anymore. I firmly believe that even after the most devastating heartbreak or loss, it becomes something much more meaningful than some hole to be filled or some dark untouchable part of our hearts. This may be totally cheesy, but I like to think of my heart as some type of garden or forest or something. A flame meant to simply keep you warm can end up burning the whole damn thing. As much as that sucks, we all know that amazing regrowth that comes after.

So, now what?

We wait for the new blossoms.